5/9/13: DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG OFFICER-SAN?

So the Wolf and I are still standing there in the school at his reservation, cleaning up after our battle and pulling desks out of lockers, when his phone rings. He says it is Bane and she wants us to go back to Sweden to look for more robots. "Fine," I say, and before I know it there she is above us in a flying car.

Well the chinese fire drill would have been funny in any event, but I suppose someone down below would have found it downright hilarious to see a woman in a leather catsuit, a wolf and a man made of metal crawling in and out of a car going about 400 miles an hour about 500 feet in the air. First they put me in the passenger seat and the car was listing to the side so badly it almost flipped. Then they put me in the little rumble seat behind, and the car almost fell out of the sky. Then they put me in the trunk, then the roof, then hanging off the rear axle. Finally, I just hung onto the roof and kind of held onto the front, and we made it back to LA. We went there first because (a)I needed more medication if we were going out of the country, and (b)I told them I could fly myself to Sweden, but I would probably black out from my condition if I had to stay aloft over an entire ocean. Bane chartered a plane instead.

We got on the plane, and after explaining to the pilots exactly how much I weigh, and how their compass and other instruments might go haywire with me on the plane, they took off anyway. Brave guys. I zoned out for a while, and when I realized what was happening we were on the tarmac in Tokyo. Bane and the Wolf seemed surprised by this, and Loup jumped out and started prowling all over the place like something was wrong. I was reading the in-flight magazine. They way I figure it, when something really goes wrong, I find out about it pretty quickly.

Well at this point things started happening pretty quick anyway. They started talking about coffee grounds and drugs and why we didn't go to New York. Loup startet getting angry about something and Bane was trying to reason with the pilot and co-pilot, who were suddenly looking very guilty. I pieced together that Loup thought these guys were drug smugglers or something, and I asked what proof we had of that before we started busting people up. No one had a good response.

Then the police showed up.

Then I was in the back of a squad car.

Then I was in a little green room with a bright light, and they took my medications away from me.

How I managed to stay calm and not do something everyone would regret later (or not, as the case may be) I will never know. I think I was in there a couple hours before they gave me back my meds and let me go. Not pleasant, but I did find a happy place and hide there so nothing bad happened.

I don't know what happened to the pilots. Bane got another plane and soon we were in Sweden and they were dragging me up some mountain to "coordinates" where Bane said somebody would be waiting for us. Triangle, or Triumph, or someone. I think it is a robot.

Anyway, we are at the door right now, so I can't write any more. Loup says he smells construction inside. I hope that is good news.

5/8/13: TOTEMS AND TALISMANS

Well, I fought my first supervillain today, and I have a lot to learn about this superhero gig. I ended up embarrassed, in pain, and barely in control. The Wolf saved my metal skin.

We are still here in Wyoming or Montana, at Loup's reservation. Now we are trying to find either the spirit of some dead shaman or the woman who is helping him. After she lobbed a fireball at Loup yesterday, I'm not so sure I want to find her. But something strange is going on in this town and no one else seems to be trying to stop it.

Loup said he was going for a steam in some magic steambox to talk to his ancestors. If he wanted to ditch me to take a nap he just should have said so. Anyway, while he is off sawing logs I'm going back to the high school to try to see if any of the kids know what is going on. Loup says there is some cult at work around here, and people being brainwashed. Most cults go for the young.

--second entry 5/8/13:

John One Tree just told me his girlfriend was bugging him to go to some special meeting at the school. Loup wants to go to the Casino to chase shadows from a dream, but I convince him to start with an actual clue instead of a heat-stroke-induced hallucination. We find Joanie Two-Trees' house, and arrive just as she and her parents are leaving for this special meeting at the high school. We tag along.

--third entry 5/8/13:

Well, its all over here, and I think we saved the day, no thanks to me. When we showed at the high school, some guards at the doors would not let us into this "meeting." I walked by them but Loup had to fight them. We eventually got in. The meeting as it turns out is in Mr. Ravenhead's room (our missing teacher). So we stroll on up there with the other students, their parents, and anyone else within earshot of this place. They are all acting strange.

When I walk up to the door, the teacher inside the room who was talking to everyone looks at me and points to the others. They all start running for me! Man, it looked like the whole Sioux nation was coming at me, and believe me they were open for business, baby! I started running. I don't think they could have hurt me, but they sure could have broken their hands and feet trying to punch and kick me. I figured getting them out of the way would give Loup a chance to go after the leader.

I took everyone to the Gymnasium. Actually, I ran there with the mob following me. Cleverly (if I say so myself) I went in and ran around until the whole crowd was in the gym with me, then I bolted out the door and magnetically crucned the doors so they would not open. I know, it was a fire safety hazard, but a superhero's gotta do what a superhero's gotta do. I went back later and fixed the doors, so shut up.

Anyway, when I finally got back up to the battle, the teacher and the woman from last night were beating Loup up pretty bad. I jumped in and started after the leader, but he was able to turn me around and get me attacking Loup. I don't know how he did it, but although it was bat to attack my friend, the sensation of control when I was overcome was incredible. All the pain washed away and for a moment I was free of the daily agony I live with. It was glorious.

But the sensation was all too short. Loup managed to pull the talisman off the guy, and he collapsed. The woman grabbed some kind of tiki from around loup's neck and burst into flame.

We won the battle, but the result was me whimpering on the floor for about five minutes. I'm gonna try not to let that happen again. But I'm going to visit this teacher later and ask him about it, for sure.

5/7/13: THE NATIVES ARE RESTLESS

I tried going back to the mansion to get something to eat tonight, but when I arrived they started yelling again about all the computers going out. I guess they must have lined the walls with lead or something at the before place, cause no one there used to give me such a hard time about it.

Anyway, the Wolf was ushering me kindly out the door when his phone rang (miracle of miracles) and he was called back to Montana or Wyoming or somewhere where his tribe lives to investigate the disappearance of some teacher. He asked if I wanted to come along, and I figured at least he'd get me something to eat, so I said ok.

Well about fifteen hours later, we arrived (bus trips suck, especially when everyone is staring at you, and the bus company makes you pay extra because you weigh as much as about five regular passengers). We stopped in to the sheriff, who told us the man's name was Ravenhair and he was a teacher, and he'd been missing for a few days. He didn't have much more detail than that, which I thought was suspicious.

We went to the guy's house. The wolf gave it the once over, then left. Again, suspicious. I wonder if all the Native Americans (even our Wolf) are in on something). Anyway, the Wolf split pretty quick, to go talk to the neighbor, so I strolled over there. They guy was totally incriminating himself by pretending to know nothing. I cut to the chase and asked if he killed Ravenhair. He said no and slammed the door in our faces. He's my prime suspect at this point.

Anyway, the Wolf split again, and I went back to Ravenhair's house to check it over better without Loup looking over my shoulder all the time. I found a strange gold medallion in the couch cushions, then started reading a bunch of Native American history books while I wait for Loup to realize I'm not with him.

He finally got back hours later, and I showed him the medallion. He put it in a bag and put it in his pocket. Then he said he wanted to check out the high school where Ravenhair taught. I tag along this time.

We got there, and after checking the school paper (they said this Ravenhair was mixed up with something called the Bison Cult, which was bad news), I went up to the Room where he taught, and Loup was there. The room was trashed (did Loup do it?). Just then some nervous girl walks in and looks us up and down, and starts pacing like a caged animal. I could sense her fear, or anger. Definitely some strong emotion towards us.

She left the room and Loup followed her. I got to the doorway and the next thing I know Loup is smashed in the face by a flame sandwich, and he goes flying back into some lockers, on fire. I look over and see this Native American woman in some crazy getup, yelling about "I am the Deer, the bringer of death at night and delight in the morning!" I saw that Star Trek episode, so I started putting up my force field. Whatever this chick was, it was about a crapload of bad news for the Wolf and I, so I figured I'd give him some time to regroup before she flamed him again.

But she didn't want to flame him again. She reached right through my force field and yanked that gold medallion out of his hand, then she disappeared.

We just stood there looking at each other, for a long time.

5/3/13: MY CRAZY TRIP TO SWEDEN

I don't know where to begin.

This afternoon the reddish haired woman they call Bane came over and asked if I wanted to help AlertForce find something called TRIAD. I'm here to learn, so I said sure. I had no idea what I was in for.

The first crazy thing was jumping into a green bubble and getting bounced into space and then back to Earth, courtesy of Green Lantern. It was a rough ride, but it beat the alternative, so I had no complaints.

Apparently we were going to Sweden to try to find some robots this Bane woman thought were important. First we were going to search some destroyed building, then she decided we would go out to sea to some coordinates someone named Snow Angel told them. Then there was a big "discussion" that seemed more like an argument about what to do first. Then I find out that the only clue these people have about where this TRIAD is comes from a dream this Bane woman had. I thought they said her powers had something to do with chemicals coming out of her hands. I didn't know she was a psychic. Everyone seemed to believe the dream though, so again I had no complaints.

She finally said we would go out to sea, and because they wanted to go to the sea floor, I had to create a magnetic field to keep myself out of the salt water while they searched. You know what salt water does to me. Anyway, they came back a couple minutes later and had some kind of robot with them, so I was like "Great! mission accomplished!" But they said it wasn't the one we were looking for. So they wanted me to go down with Green Lantern to the ocean floor and use my magnetic field to bring up whatever is under the mud there. Well, I'm already in pain from using the magnetic field to hold myself up, but I'm a hero now, right? So I say "sure" and go into the green bubble again. Then I'm on the bottom of the ocean all like Magneto or something, and three big metal balls are pulling towards me, and my insides are really starting to hurt. But I see what they are in time -- old Limpet mines, so whoa!, back they go. I figure I'd better explode them so nobody else gets hurt. So I did.

Then we went back to Stockholm (I think that's where we were, nobody was telling me much). I suggest we could search the rubble if we get the government to let us, and the Wolf asks and they say ok. So we started pulling concrete and metal out of the hole. I was able to get a rest from using my powers when we came back from the sea, but then we were pullng this rubble out hour after hour, and I had to keep using my magnetic field to pull out the metal bits. I started to get numb, and had to go take some pills to keep from blacking out again. That helped though. A few minues later I was able to get started again. I think I am going to pay for all that exhertion tomorrow though. I may have to go see the Doc about it.

Anyway, just as we were pulling the last few loads of stuff out of the hole, the Wolf starts yelling that he's found something. It was part of a Robot. We searched around and found the rest, and this time they said it was one of the ones they were looking for. We didn't find anything more, so we brought it back to LA and gave it to that Joe guy. I think he is going to try to fix it.

I don't know how much good I did today for the price I paid. I guess blowing up those mines was good. Sooner or later someone was going to get hurt by them, so that was good, I guess.

Things are more chaotic here than I thought they would be. These people aren't as together as I expected. If I can cope with the chaos, I think I can keep going. Maybe things will start getting clearer soon. The Green Lantern and the Wolf are being nice to me, but I haven't figured out yet what is the deal with this Bane woman. She was acting like the leader today, but I thought they said that Mantis guy was the leader. Or was it that other brown haired woman they said could blow the wind? I can't remember.

Anyway, I'm tired and starting to feel the ache inside from using my powers so much today. I think I need to take a few more pills and rest.

5/1/03: STRANGE HOMECOMING

It's been a strange day, all things considered. I think I need to record my thoughts in this journal again to calm my mind, which has been racing since I got here.

As soon as I knocked on the door of that mansion on the hill, all hell broke loose. A woman and two men answered the door. The woman was small, with reddish-dark hair and the look of a hunting animal in her eyes. One of the men was skinny and blonde -- I think he was European, and the other was a huge monster of a man. I could barely get a word in edgewise through their arguing, banter, and the general chaos of being around them. It was clear they had no idea who I was, but they did little to protect any secrets, and soon were quizzing me about my so-called powers and trying to find a room to put me up in.

Soon someone whom I recognized strolled in. It was the Wolf. I've seen him in some of my dreams. He is some kind of teacher, I think. I remember knowing him, learning from him, before. If only I could remember his name. He called me "Razor" and I hated that my first words to him were correcting him against doing it again. But it hurts now to hear that word used to refer to me.

Then things got really strange. Three more people walked in -- one was a guy in a kilt. He said nothing, listened to the blabbering for a few minutes, shook his head, and left. I could not blame him. The second was a brown-haired woman with the eyes of an eagle. She looked me over, but didn't say much. I don't know what she thought of me.

The third was a woman dressed in red. She was the smallest of all the women here, but moved like a caged wildcat. They called her Harlee, but I knew from the moment I set eyes on her that I'd seen her before, but with another name. When she showed up, that's when things got ugly. The Wolf grabbed her and slung her over his shoulder. She was screaming and pounding his back, but the man is strong. I started to say something, but before I got a word out the first big burly guy proceeded to whip out a GREEN LANTERN RING and zap the wolf, the woman and everything into a big green bubble, nice as you please. Again, I tried to yell in between the arguing and shouting, but no one seemed to hear me asking what was going on, or why they were torturing that poor woman. I heard the Wolf yelling something about her being a criminal, and the others yelling right back that she was a guest or something.

Anyway, she was starting to freak out in that green bubble, and no one seemed to care. I couldn't let her lose it in there. I of all people understand what it's like to be imprisoned in a small place. I didn't know what I could do, but I had to try. It hurt me to do it, but I threw up my own magnetic field to try to disrupt the green bubble around her, or protect her, or something. Nothing happened.

Finally, their argument slowed enough for someone to answer me. They said she was a criminal named Harlee Quinn. Only I knew different. They finally agreed to let her out of the bubble and she ran. I ran after her.

I don't know if what I did was wise or noble, but it seemed like the right thing at the time. I convinced her to stay. I told her she had helped me (true) and that I wanted the chance to return that favor. I could see she was as scared and confused as I was. She made me promise to try to protect her, and God help me, I did.

My first day on the "superhero" job, and I've already overdone it.

They decided to put Harlee and me in apartments near their mansion, so I don't fry their computer. I guess this will have to do for now. I'm still hoping these people can help me, but my certainty is leaving me now. Anyway, throwing up that force field upset my system. I've got to go take my pills. Writing about this seems to have calmed me down a bit. Maybe I can even get myself to sleep, and not have it shattered again by the dreams.

I will keep writing in this journal. I think they were right about it clearing my mind.